SO Angry… I want to cry…
April 27, 2008 by mysterybeneath
This has been the absolute worst weekend of 2008… won’t say my life, because I truly don’t know if it was THAT horrid…
It started out with me going to my bowling tournament… I really didn’t want to be there to begin with, but I made a commitment and I went. I bowled like utter poppycock… the 9 games I bowled in 2 days… I DID NOT once get my average.
Last night, I went with my team to the hotel room they reserved… it wasn’t worth the money that they spent on it. A few things happened and I was disgusted so I left and found my own room elsewhere. Throughout all of this… a guy that SAYS he wants us to move further texts me some crazy shit saying I am drunk and I never have time when I am alone to talk to him… blah blah blah. Texts back saying we are completely finished… ok dude… don’t have the fucking balls to DIAL 10 DIGITS and SPEAK to me? Fuck you!
I was at a bowling tournament, I didn’t need the added stress of some self-righteous, pompous, asinine, idiot text messaging me telling me that I am this or that… dude the last i talked to you I was putting a grill together, said I would call you later… and I did… leaving you a message and I hadn’t heard from you until now that was over 3 weeks ago… and you get UPSET that I am not alone? Fuck that! I am a mom… I have a life… I don’t understand how fucking hard it is to pick up a phone and say hi… why do we always have to have an hour long conversation? Why do I have to be alone to talk to you? Isn’t getting to know someone about getting to know their life as well?
People wonder why I don’t want to date… gee… because every fucking man I run into thinks that I must DOTE on them… I must spend every waking moment making them happy… what the fuck makes ME happy? Or do you even fucking care?
I seriously just want to lay here on the couch, curl up in a ball and cry at this point. Not because of this guy… guys come and go… I’m not worried about that… I want to cry because I have so much fucking stress and for just ONE DAY… 24 hours… 1440 minutes … 86400 seconds… I WANT NO STRESS… NO DRAMA… NO ONE NEEDING ANYTHING FROM ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Calgon TAKE ME AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My God I am so pissed…. so exhausted… so frustrated… I seriously want to cry!
Oh sweetie,
I’ve had those days and they really do suck. I’m sorry you had such a bad day and yeah, men can be total dick heads. Screw Calgon - why not see if you can get a weekend away at one of those spas where they pamper for two solid days. That’s my dream get away.
Hope things are looking up.
Annie